Exactly 24 hours from now, I will be at my doctor’s office
getting my cycle day 3 scan. This is not like any scan I have had before,
because, if all goes well, I will be jumping on the journey of IVF. I reflect
on everything that has happened that has led me to this point. It was not easy,
and to say that I wouldn’t change anything is a complete lie. I would change a
lot quite honestly! But, I am where I am today, and I am happy with that!
For the last few months I have been on a whole other journey
in itself; A journey for self-betterment. I started attending counseling, which
has been fabulous. But I still felt like something was missing, so, I started
going back to church. Not only that, but the whole family has been going, and
that has truly been a wonderful and fulfilling experience. Seeing how much A
has truly enjoyed it and been so excited to learn is heartwarming. That was
definite food for the soul and has given me such peace about all of this. And
one of the last things I have done for myself was getting me healthy. With the
help of my family and bestie, I have done a few diet challenges and started
going back to the gym. I have successfully lost 25 pounds as of today. I am 5
pounds away from my goal weight loss of 30, and will hopefully achieve that
before my actual IVF.
I am filled with lots of emotions and lots of thoughts as
anyone would be in my situation. I am feeling incredibly hopeful but equally
nervous. I truly believe that God has this and I have to trust in his plan for
me, even if it isn’t what I want. That is the hardest part right there. I will
keep doing everything I can on my end to help things along, but I know He has
this. I will gladly accept any prayers or happy thoughts for anyone reading
this, because it can only help things out, right?! :)
I look forward to updating this blog on my IVF journey, and
with God’s blessing, the journey of Motherhood.
