Weekend Bliss

This weekend was just absolutely wonderful, I would even say almost magical! D and I picked his daughter up around 630, picked up some pizza and went back to the house. We ate dinner, played some games, and then had a slumber party where we made chocolate chip cookies and watched The Little Mermaid in bed. We all passed out around 1030. The morning was one of my favorite parts….listening to D and his daughter A talking and then getting up and making breakfast, blissful! I had always envisioned this when I bought this house…little ones scattered around the house, hearing their little conversations, waking up to breakfast with the family, so cute! After breakfast, we all played a bit downstairs and made our way up to get ready for the day. Watching D get her ready and picking out an outfit was just adorable! While D was getting ready, I was fixing her hair and playing dentist on a game she was in love with. It just felt so surreal and so perfect. We all got ready and headed out to the St. Patrick’s Day Parade downtown. We had so much fun! Watching the parade with a kid adds such a different element to it, it was great! We watched the floats pass by, snacked on popcorn and caught a lot of goodies being tossed out. We ended our downtown afternoon with some lunch and a quick tour of my office where she met one of my best friends. It was fun getting to show off her cuteness. After that, we pretty much stayed in for the rest of the weekend playing games, watching movies, and doing chores. It really felt like I was playing mom. I was so busy and so exhausted, but it was a blast! I felt more than ever like I was truly ready for motherhood! And the most amazing part of it all was that D and I really clicked and worked well together when parenting. We had great communication and our styles were nearly the same. He really impressed me this weekend and got me super excited about our future together and ttc! He is such an amazing man, and I am madly in love with him! I never knew that I could be this happy with someone! I cannot wait to start trying with him….I think it would be absolutely amazing to have a child with him and have this cute little family with our little on and his adorable daughter. I don’t think I could picture it any better!

Ch Ch Ch Changes

Crazy how so many things can change in such a short amount of time. So last week, the baby mom reached out to D and they settled on this last weekend for them to get together. They were meeting at McDonalds, a neutral location, to eat breakfast, see his daughter, and then go back to her place to see where she lives and then home. D called me about 4 hours after their meet-up time and said that the baby mom, S, had to run errands and asked if D wanted her for the afternoon. He jumped at the chance and he ended up bringing her back to the house. It was the first time meeting his daughter and it was absolutely wonderful! I got to see him in such a different way, all fatherly and amazing! His daughter is so adorable, well mannered, very polite, and listens really well. She was such a joy to have around. My heart melted and everything just felt so magical. It really made me fall even more in love with D, he was just such a great dad and I loved seeing him take that role on! Really gave me insight and hope as to the kind of father he would be to our child….I am smitten! That weekend, I even met and hung out with S, and actually found her pretty cool! Their dynamic was interesting, but I also feel much more at ease after meeting them. There is always this thought in the back of your head that wonders if you just pushed him back into the arms of his ex. I mean they share a different bond that he and I do not share….it may be something stronger that pulls him from me, but after meeting her and understanding their relationship, I felt so much better! It was a really great weekend.

So this weekend we are getting his daughter Friday and Saturday night….a whole weekend with her. I am very excited but also equally as terrified. I am hoping everything goes well. We had her for 4 hours just us and it went great! This is a whole different ball game, and could go horribly wrong! I am trying to keep the faith that it will go great! His daughter and I get along well, but really, it’s not that hard to get along with a 5 year old! This will be a good test for us since we are thinking about ttc soon! I am sure I will have a ton of stories to report back! I still can’t get over how fast everything went and how far D has come! He is doing fantastic at work, working on his relationship with his daughter, and going to start working towards the license. I am very excited and optimistic!

On a side note, we are now approaching  the two week mark until two of my best friend’s get married and where I will have to see my ex-husband at the wedding. We had a pretty decent talk a few days ago that calmed my nerves a bit, but I am still not looking forward to seeing him, or more importantly, HER! Really would have loved to go the rest of my life never laying eyes on her, but since that is not an option, I am going to hold my head up high and know that I won! I have the great guy, the house, the amazing looking future, and she has him, my sloppy seconds! No greater revenge than that! It is sure to be an interesting few weeks!! Wish me luck!!!