Coming to the end of an era

Well….I have now entered the last year of my 20’s, kind of sad and definitely not looking forward to next year’s birthday! I do have to say, that is was probably the best birthday of my 20’s, so if it has to come to an end, I’m glad it ended this way! The morning started by fresh baked cinnamon rolls and coffee in bed by my wonderful boyfriend. When I finally emerged out of that heaven, I made my way to the living room where him and my mom had decorated. I got to open a gift and a card early and was ecstatic to see an Itunes Gift Card in that little box! We talked for a bit and slowly migrated off on our separate ways to work. When I arrived at work, my cubicle was decorated by one of my best friends and an awesome cup of coffee was waiting for me! Mid morning, I was asked to come to the front desk and was wildly surprised by the beautiful bouquet of roses sitting on the desk all for me!  They came with a wonderful card and instantly put a smile on my face! My amazing boyfriend has outdone himself! They were perfect! Lunch was a decadent three course meal at this fantastic restaurant in the Springs and was perfectly paired with the chocolate cake that my boss had brought it! We did dinner at a delicious hibachi restaurant with friends and a really yummy adult drink and was followed by gifts and dessert at the house. I felt spoiled as I opened my wonderful gifts of kitchen accessories, fuzzy socks, lotions and perfumes, and a season of American Horror Story! It had to have been just one of the best days! Who knew that it could get better?! I took the next day off of work and slept in until 10 which was magical! I did some randomness around the house and finally ventured out to be a bit rebellious and got my nose pierced, which I am in love with! I picked up D right after work and he told me to take him to best buy. We walked in and he took me over to the electronics and told me that he is buying me a tablet. I had a look of pure shock on my face! He told me that he wants to do this because of all the sweet things I did for him and how I let him borrow my laptop while he was unemployed. I couldn’t believe how selfless this man was! I have never had a gift like this and honestly, I felt so guilty for it! He finally convinced me and we walked away with a Surface 2! I am still speechless and feel insanely spoiled! I wanted to thank him and I couldn’t think of a better way than to surprise him with a little getaway with the birthday money I received to celebrate 10 months. We went to this cute little hotel just outside of Denver on Saturday night. We did dinner at Cheesecake Factory and an awesome walk around a fantastic mall that was covered in Christmas decor! The night was perfect…filled with love, passion, romance, and fun! I couldn’t have asked for a better night! This had honestly been one of the best weekends ever! I had no idea that I could ever be this happy! D is truly a remarkable person and I fall in love with him more and more every day! I get excited to see where this goes and the future we will have together! I don’t know what I did to deserve such a wonderful man, but I thank God everyday! On a side note…I think we are talking about starting my meds in January to see if we can conceive. It makes me super nervous and excited at the same time, but I feel like it is the right decision and I feel like we are making good and rational choices. We are still in the talking phase of this and nothing has been decided, but it makes me very happy!

It's the simple things

I had to take some time out of the night to write about tonight so that I never forget this moment. Tonight, D and I came downstairs after grabbing some dinner and settled in to some relaxation which includes video games for him and television for me. No good shows were on tonight until late, so I decided to throw on "The Perks of Being a Wallflower". I asked him if he had ever seen it and he said that he saw bits and pieces. He asked me the same, and I told him that I took myself out to see this in theaters alone. This came out in October of last year, just shortly after my husband had left me. I remember sitting alone in the dark theater thinking that my life was just pure shit. I hadn't felt that kind of loneliness and emptiness in my life. The movie was incredible, but there was this one line in the movie that instantly reduced me to a weeping hot mess. "We accept the love we think we deserve"....such a power phrase. All I could think was that I must not feel like I deserve much since I am begging this man to stay in my life who could treat me so poorly. How could I want a man back that clearly didn't love me?! At that moment, I felt like I hit rock bottom. I was broken and destroyed. At that moment, I felt like I lost everything and there was absolutely no way that I could ever be happy or have anything remotely as wonderful as I had it. Fast forward to tonight....I have this wonderful man beside me that put his game away, and sat beside me holding my hand and kissing the top of my head. All of this because he wanted the second time I saw this movie to be wonderful to make up for the first time I saw it. The very end has a sweet little line to the affect of looking up and seeing a beautiful woman....suddenly, a hand gently caressed my cheek and slowly moved it to face him. He looked at me and told me I was so beautiful and kissed me. That moment, I felt more love than I have ever before. This man did something so simple but meant the absolute world to me. I never could have imagined that my life would look like this today. I didn't feel like I deserved anything, let alone an ounce of love. I told D that was how I felt a year ago. He told me that I was so sweet and wonderful, and deserved all the love in the world. I am absolutely in love with this man. I don't know how it happened, but I would do it a million times over just for him. It's amazing how much can change in just one year. Every tear, every pain, every crappy moment was absolutely worth the end result. I am so happy! Thank you to the man that threw me away so that the man who appreciates me and loves me could appear and sweep me off my feet!