Life has been nothing short of a whirlwind
lately….it has nearly been chaos, but the good kind of chaos! D and I have had
A almost every weekend for the last 4 months. It has been one of the most
challenging situations of my life, but also the most rewarding! That little
girl brings such joy and excitement into our life, and I wouldn’t have it any
other way! It hasn’t been without struggle though. One of the most challenging
things has been agreement on Parenting. For the most part, we agree on Parenting
style, and we see eye to eye on the big things, but the little things add up
and we bicker about those. It never gets out of control, and has actually been
beneficial as we are learning this whole new experience together. The only other
challenge has been her mother. A’s mom has an alcohol problem and seems to get
in trouble with the law frequently. She is almost always without a job and
comes with a fair share of drama. We all get along, and that has been great and
makes things a lot easier. But it is increasingly difficult to send A back into
that mess week after week. I just want to scoop her up and keep her away from
all of that. I would never want to keep her from her mom, but I wish her mom
would get it together and not put her daughter in the middle of that! I am just
happy that she treats her wonderfully. She loves that little girl so much! Even
with all of those challenges, it is still pretty damn amazing! We get to do so
much with her, and that partially calms my baby craze, and partially enhances
it! We have done movies, parks, water parks, kid festivals and events, and gatherings
with other friends and their kids. I think the best moments are the ones that
are so simple. Sitting downstairs as we all cuddle on the couch to watch a
movie together and having her fall asleep on our laps, or just hearing her cute
little voice tell you she loves you….it melts your heart! I still can’t believe
that this is my life!
Amidst all of the family life changes with
the kiddo, I have picked up a part time
job for the summer. I wanted to get some landscaping done as well as pay off my
credit card, so I took a job on the weekends. Working 7 days a week has been
exhausting, but watching my credit card debit slowly subside has been worth it!
Things have just been working out so well lately, I am afraid I am dreaming and
it will vanish! After taking this job, I entered a contest for Home Depot, and
ended up winning the contest and getting gift cards to Home Depot….perfect
timing as I wanted to landscape this year. That saved me a ton of money! This is
on the heels of winning a previous contest that left me with some great Target Gift
cards! The Target gift cards allowed me to get some great stuff for the house,
but helped me purchase my meds and I still have some left over for future baby
stuff! And speaking of the infamous B word….looks like we are getting closer to
actually putting those meds to good use! We have talked about it, and I think
we are going to work out and get healthy while working on our relationship in
the next few months, and see where we are at in September. We are both nervous,
but equally excited! So we shall see!
