Smitten Kitten

So a topic recently came up between some of my friends, my mother and myself regarding dating. Since I have met the boy, let’s call him D, I have decided to back off of dating, and see where things go with this guy. That then opened up the conversation to the fact that I should not be doing that, instead, I should open myself up to other possibilities and not just take what is in front of me. I understand why they said that, and for the most part believe in what they say, but I also tend to disagree with them. Things with D have progressed farther and faster than I have imagined or anticipated. I genuinely like this guy and there is a very strong attraction to him. To me, it seems like the logical thing to do would be to see where this takes me. I cannot juggle men, I cannot date more than one at a time. It almost seems unfair and pretty exhausting to try and keep up with multiple people. Plus, that is just not how I am made. I am almost a reflection of my mother, but I have knowledge of this mistakes she has made which has allowed me to become a version of her that fits my personality and goals better. I am a serial monogamous, I like being in a relationship, I loved being married, that is just who I am. I am not saying by any means that I am thinking of D in a long-term relationship kind of way, but I definitely want to put my effort and focus into this and see where it goes. I may decide in a month that he drives me crazy and is not worth it, or he may become this amazing surprise in my life. Either way, I think right now, he is definitely worth the risk. I really had an amazing weekend with him and have developed strong feelings for him. I have only known him a short period of time, but I feel so close and comfortable with him, it blows my mind! He is so funny, charming, intelligent, insightful, kind, compassionate, and just a really great guy! I could talk to him for hours or simply cuddle up on the couch and listen to music without saying a word and it is just as wonderful! And then there is the sex…OH MY GOD the sex! I have only ever been with one man, but I can say without a doubt, I did not know what sex was or how good it could be! He is AMAZING! I still feel like a teenager in a sense that I cannot seem to get enough and it is now one of the most thought about things during my day! I can’t believe I had been missing out for so long! In any case, this weekend was such a blast, we really got to know each other, spend time doing a variety of things, and he even met a few of my friends which was pretty cool! I very much miss seeing him and it has only been 3 days. I can pretty much say that I am smitten! I feel so happy and I didn’t think that would be possible for quite a while. Still uncertain of where this will go, but I know for certain that I am having a blast!