Why Not

My weekend turned out better than anticipated! The biggest thing that brought me joy was getting to talk to my friend mentioned in my previous post. I was so nervous how all of it would turn out, and I couldn’t be happier! He told me that unfortunately he did not have those same feelings for me, which I was okay with, and that no matter what happens, we would always remain friends! He is such a wonderful person and I am so glad to have him in my life! It was actually kind of funny, the more I thought about it, even if he did feel differently, I don’t know that I would have wanted more. The idea of dating someone who does not know me and who is not connected to any of this sounds great! I don’t want a guy with preconceived notions or perceptions of my previous relationship because of something he said. I want/need a neutral party. So that leads me to this…I signed up for online dating. The idea both frightens and excites me. I have given it a lot of thought and finally made me decision. I was against it because I felt like it was really soon after everything that happened, and I now have a lot of baggage. I also didn’t know how I felt about dating while I was still technically married, but I just really miss being around men and flirting. I figured that everyone is pretty much going to have some sort of baggage. So I decided that if I have the confidence to give my number out, then why not make a profile. Sidenote- I think I am adopting “Why Not” as my new motto! So I made a profile, threw up some pictures, one of which is the dreaded body shot, and figured that I would see what happens. I did say that I am not looking for anything more than friendship/casual dating and see if it leads to more because that is what I feel like I could handle right now. So I am playing the waiting game and seeing if I get anything. I am not exactly hopeful, but you never know, or rather, WHY NOT?!