Refreshed!

This weekend and today have been a breath of fresh air and have helped me immensely in moving on. I packed the last of his stuff up in boxes, disassembled his mancave and made it my office, and today….. I took off my rings. Every time I looked down at my ring, I was filled with intense sadness of what will never be, all of the lies, broken promises, and of the failure that is my marriage. I didn’t want to take them off because it symbolized that I have become a failure and couldn’t make my marriage work. I was submitting to defeat and would somehow disappoint God by just giving up. But that just isn’t so. I did everything I possibly could and spent every waking minute trying to save my marriage, but it was fighting a losing battle. You can’t make a relationship work with just one person. I can keep my head held high knowing I fought hard and stayed true to who I am and what marriage stands for. But I can honestly say that it is over. I feel good about who I have become through all of this and I am looking forward to my future. I just want to have fun and find someone who will treat me the way I deserved to be treated! I will find that guy and I will have the family I always dreamed of. Just a shame that he couldn’t look past his affair and see what a truly wonderful thing he was giving up! I am on to bigger and better things! This world is full of endless possibilities!