Weekend fun

I am incredibly excited and incredibly nervous for tonight. Tonight, the guy I am seeing is coming over and we are doing a date night weekend. He is coming over after work and I will cook us some dinner, and then we are going to watch some movies and play some video games together, and then he is going to stay the night. The plan is to get up early, and he has a whole day of events planned that he wants to surprise me with. I am so happy and I think it is so awesome that he wants to make this weekend fun and surprise me, however I have mixed feelings on him staying the night. He was completely respectful and said he would sleep on the couch, but I don’t want him to. I miss having a man laying next to me in bed. I miss snuggling and cuddling, or even just hearing someone next to me or feeling their warmth. I am very much looking forward to that, that is not the issue. The sex is the issue. I am not ready to jump into that part of a relationship, but as I say that, my body is screaming out a different response. It has been a while since I have had a man’s touch, and when he touches me, my body goes crazy and it doesn’t take much for me to lose all of my inhibitions. I have told him that I am not ready for that step, and he has been very understanding and accepting, but I am not sure how much longer I can keep this up. I really like him, he is incredibly amazing, but I need to take things slow. I am really just excited to spend the night/day with him, it’s like I can’t get enough of him. I am excited to just kick back, relax, enjoy the night and each other, and have fun! He makes me laugh, makes me think, and makes me feel so good about myself. This is just such a strange thing in my life that happened, and I couldn’t be happier. I am taking one day at a time and just enjoying life!