Losing it

Intense…a feeling I am becoming all too familiar with. It has been only 17 days since I met D, but it feels like much longer. We talk for hours every day and see each other pretty much every other day. Things are very intense, this whole thing is intense. When we are around each other, there is this strong connection and an overwhelming attraction. You would think that we would have been dating for months. Last night, during our date, we both got lost in each other’s eyes and sat there in awe and completely silent for a few minutes. There was an unspoken agreement about our mutual feelings for one another. That both terrified me and excited me! So being the crazy person I am, I had to get a verbal explanation or confirmation on this. He told me that the reason we fit so well to begin with is that we were both broken and lonely people who were looking for an escape and someone to take our minds off of our situations. But within that, we found something more, something we were not looking for but that happened. He didn’t want anything serious and neither did I, but the connection we shared opened our eyes to something more. This is one of the things I like best about him, he is extremely insightful and is not afraid to be completely honest, even if it is not something I want to hear. It is refreshing and reassuring…I don’t want someone to give me lip service or blatantly lie to me. All of this information was quite overwhelming. To be honest, this whole thing is overwhelming and ridiculously scary making it very intense. I don’t want to make the wrong move or rush things, but it just feels right. I cannot explain it in a way that does not make me sound crazy. I recognize that I sound crazy, I really do. I mean who develops strong feelings for someone they met almost 3 weeks ago?! And again, to be honest, if this were one of my friends, I would probably take them aside and tell them they were crazy! None of it makes any sense, but at the same time makes total sense. I am pretty much talking in circles here… but it gives you an inside as to what my brain does all day. I am constantly going back and forth in my head as to whether or not this is a good idea or not. I do know for a fact that he is a great guy with an incredible heart who I am attracted to and he makes me happy, and really, that is all I can ask for. Just going to let life happen and see what happens, and I will drive everyone crazy with my rampant blogs!