Reality bites

Yesterday had to be one of the strangest days I have had in a while! Day started of extremely well with some early morning fun, and then it was off to work on a pretty normal Monday. The morning was busy and flew by and before I knew it, I was eating lunch! I got back from running errands and within 10 minutes, I got a call from the receptionist saying a process server was at the front for me. I froze…my heart started pounding and I was shaking. I knew it the day was coming, but I was still blindsided. This was the hard hit of reality slapping me in the face. I walked up to the other building and was served with divorce papers. I took them from the server and made my way down the hill back to my building as tears were pouring down my face. I thought I was ready enough to receive them and I didn’t think it would affect me the way it did. It was so much harder than I had anticipated. Here I am, holding these papers that are ending our marriage. I walked in the building and lost it. I crumpled up and cried in an empty office while a wonderful friend comforted me. When I was able to gather myself together, I walked back to my desk and attempted to work. I couldn’t really focus, I kept thinking about those papers and how defeated I felt. It felt like that moment he walked out all over again. I then thought about all that I was losing…my best friend, my husband, my former life, the fact that I was so close to having children…it was all gone! I approached my boss and asked if I could leave early since I was apparently not in the right frame of mind to work. She graciously awarded me my freedom. I got into my car, and broke down again. I just wanted to get away, go for a drive, and retail therapy sounded pretty damn good! I decided that I was going to go to Castle Rock, but immediately thought of D. I thought about how much fun I have with him, how good he makes me feel, and how I love being around him, and I thought he would be the perfect addition to this adventure. I was right! We had a blast! He made the trip so much fun and took my mind off of everything! We went shopping at the Outlets, which if you know about those places, they are generated towards females, and he was so patient and sweet to let me drag him from shop to shop. All he wanted was just to spend time with me! It was amazing! I awarded him with a random trip to Game Stop afterwards. We then headed home and stopped for dinner along the way. It was such a complete turnaround from the day I was having! He made it so wonderful that I realized just how lucky I am to have him in my life, and that made me realize that I am going to be just fine. My soon to be ex threw me away like I was nothing, but here D is to show me just how wonderful I am. I am really falling for this guy! He is really incredible! So what started out as a good day, turned bad, but was made good again by this wonderful man who I am crazy about and made me excited about my future! Later that night, we celebrated the arrival of those papers with some mind blowing sex…I would say that was the perfect way to do so! This whole thing was the absolute worst thing to happen to me, but may actually turn out to be the best thing to happen to me. I can’t wait for what the future brings!