Someone Anyone

Loneliness is taking over. I feel empty and alone. I miss him. I miss everything I took for granted. I miss his touch, his smell, his eyes, his voice, his kiss, every little tiny detail I miss. I miss cuddling in his arms, that feeling, so safe, so loved, so small, so cherished. I miss that look that he would give me, filled with so much love, passion, wonderment, and sincerity. I miss the cute little things he would say, the little nicknames, the way he said my name, his little songs, all of our random conversations. I miss the way he would hold my hand and gently stroke the back of my hand with his thumb. I miss listening to him sleep and that feeling of waking up next to him. I miss spending time with him, our trips to the store, our movie dates, and our random spur of the moment outings. I miss walking hand in hand with him proudly and confidently displaying our love, a love that was stronger than anything, that meant more than anything.  I miss our intimate moments, and not just for the obvious reasons, but for what they meant. He loved me so much that it didn’t matter what I looked like on the outside, because he saw my inner beauty. Our love was evident in the way we made love, so passionate, connecting in ways never imagined. I miss him. I miss him. I miss him! Every day that passes gets harder. Harder to handle, harder to imagine what it felt like, and harder to believe he will return. I love him, and he loves me. I don’t understand how he can say such awful things when they are complete lies. I know love, true love, and that just doesn’t go away. It may not have been as hot and heavy as it once was, but we had real, true, and honest love! I want a second chance, we deserve a second chance at love, at our happily ever after. I don’t know what else to do or say, I feel lost and hopeless. I fall to my knees nearly every night praying for God to fill his heart, open his eyes, and reveal the truth. He is fighting such demons, and although he is strong, I feel like he is losing the battle. All I can do is sit back and take the pain, the suffering, and the lies. I am doing this for us; I am taking it all so he doesn’t have to fight alone. Love has to be enough, it just does, because you don’t throw this kind of love away.