One day at a time

I am now officially one day late. That may not sound like a milestone, but for over a year now, I have been ridiculously regular. I am either a day early or on time. I am not sure what to do or how to feel. My theory has always been this; my goal is pregnancy, if I miss my period due to the fact that I am pregnant, it would be the best news ever, but if I do have my period, at least I know that I am having them regularly and I can continue my cycle and try again next month. So not having it could mean one of two things… either my miracle has happened and I am preggo, or my cycle is screwed up and that is another thing I can add to the list of things going against us. I am so confused and my emotions are everywhere. I want to remain hopeful and let myself believe that this could be it, but I also feel like at any moment the bottom could drop from under me and crush my hopes. So do I risk disappointment and test early, or do I wait and drive myself even more insane? Really, the only thing I can do is take it one day at a time and either hope and pray that I am pregnant, or if I am not, hope that my period comes so I can get back on track. I will probably break down and test anyway, risking disappointment since I am going to drive myself insane either way. As I said, I am extremely impatient!

Side note, the hubby started his HCG injections yesterday, and holy crap was it intense. I told him I would give it to him, but he insisted on doing it himself. After a 15 minute stand-off with the needle, he did it! I cried for the both of us! He did wonderful, but I hate that I am putting him through this. He is absolutely amazing and I am so lucky to have him. I am so grateful that I have him through all of this. I don’t know what I would do if I had to do it alone! I love him so much!