God Is Good!

I sit here today with my heart so full of joy, because I am officially pregnant for the first time in my life! This week has been filled with ups and downs but it was worth every moment!

After taking the test and getting a negative on 5dp5dt, I became depressed and very hopeless. I was racking my brain trying to come up with possible plans after I got the final negative. My family and friends tried to keep my spirits up with positive messages and so much love and support. By the time Wednesday came around, I was a mess. I had done nothing but pray and cry the morning of my blood test, my managed to slap on a smile while D and I made our way to my doctor’s office. We went inside, did the blood draw, walked out of the door, and just cried in each other’s arms and said another prayer.

We each went to work, nervous as can be. At my desk, I tried to breath and prepare myself for the worst. I planned to work ahead so that way I could take the rest of the day off to grieve. I was incredibly productive I must say! My plan for the phone call was to let it go to voicemail, and then conference call my Mom and D so we could all hear the results at the same time. At 11:56a, I got the call. I ran to the conference room, dialed my mom but couldn’t get D on the line too. So I hung up with her and called him. My heart dropped as I saw it was only a :07 message. I hit play and heard my very monotone doctor tell me to call her back. I went to call her back, but got a generic voicemail message that they were closed for lunch! Ahhhh!! How am I supposed to wait ANOTHER hour! I told D that if she called again before 1p, I would answer it and then call him. If she didn’t call, I would get him on the line and call around 1:15.

At 12:57pm my phone rang, and it was my doctor. I grabbed my phone, and headed for the conference room. I answered the phone holding my breath. Then she uttered the word that shook my world…CONGRATULATIONS. I could not believe it! My HCG was at a 94 and Progesterone was 18.6. She told me to up my PIO injections and go back Friday for another test. I hung up and cried my eyes out! I was so ecstatic and completely in shock! I thought it was negative. The only thing that made me slightly believe that it was positive was that the dull pain and slight cramping I still felt was solely on my left side, which is where my uterus is. But that was it. Again, complete shock! I called my Mom and D and some of my close friends to share the good news!

One of the best parts was telling A. I picked her up from school, and she asked me immediately. D wanted us to tell her together, so I just evaded the question and said I have my test Friday. She shrugged it off and we went to Girl Scouts. Afterwards, we all met up at Red Robin for a celebratory dinner. We got to the restaurant and my Mom got me a rose and a card. Alexis seemed puzzled, so we shared the news with her, and that was amazing! She was shocked and even teared up. It made it all the more special. The rest of the night was pure bliss! I even ran home and took a test and it finally showed up positive, after all of these years! Simply amazing!

I went this morning for my repeat HCG beta test, and got the call that I went from a 94 to 250. Ahhhh, incredible! My little poppy seed is sticking! I go on Monday February 5^th for my very first Ultrasound. So for the time being, I am taking it easy, continuing my Etradiol Patches and Progesterone in Oil injections, and enjoying this blissful dream world that I am in. God is good. This is all for his glory and I know that he has this. I am definitely not out of the woods yet, but it looks so good. Thank you for your thoughts and prayers, they are so appreciated. I will post soon with more updates! Love to all!