Well today was not what I was hoping for! Ugh! I took my lovely little
Letrozole on the designated days like I was supposed to, and then had a really
nice and fun weekend on a little road trip from AZ back to CO with my mother. I
woke up this morning half excited and half worried for my appointment today. I
got to my doctors, had a little pep talk with my left side as we took the
elevator up, and thought we were on the same page. I was wrong! Et tu Brute?!
Just like Julius fucking Caesar, my body betrayed me! I was on the table when
my doctor told me that yet again, that lazy bastard of an ovary produced
NOTHING! Not a damn thing! The fucking valedictorian right ovary did its job
and made a perfect follicle! GAHHH! My doctor told me that we had to make a
change as she didn't see the point going on like this since nothing was
happening. My two options, a cycle with injectables or IVF. Since I am not
rich, IVF is out of the picture, so that left the injectables. What that means…..Next
cycle, I will go in as normal, but once I get the green light, I will continue
to go into the office close to every other day to get blood drawn and an ultrasound
to check levels and make sure all is good. Then, on the daily, from CD3 to CD11-14,
I will inject myself with Follistim. The results from blood test will determine
the dosage for the next few days. Then, if my left side decides to join the
party instead of being an absolute asshole, I will take the Ovadriel trigger
shot that makes me ovulate and will do my 3rd IUI. It is much more
expensive than what I have been doing, but will hopefully result in a wee one
and make all of this worth it! I am so lucky to have such a great support
system through all of this, because I don’t know what I would do without them!
I feel weak today, but will be stronger tomorrow and I will make this happen! I
will have this baby! I am not giving up!
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