It's the simple things

I had to take some time out of the night to write about tonight so that I never forget this moment. Tonight, D and I came downstairs after grabbing some dinner and settled in to some relaxation which includes video games for him and television for me. No good shows were on tonight until late, so I decided to throw on "The Perks of Being a Wallflower". I asked him if he had ever seen it and he said that he saw bits and pieces. He asked me the same, and I told him that I took myself out to see this in theaters alone. This came out in October of last year, just shortly after my husband had left me. I remember sitting alone in the dark theater thinking that my life was just pure shit. I hadn't felt that kind of loneliness and emptiness in my life. The movie was incredible, but there was this one line in the movie that instantly reduced me to a weeping hot mess. "We accept the love we think we deserve"....such a power phrase. All I could think was that I must not feel like I deserve much since I am begging this man to stay in my life who could treat me so poorly. How could I want a man back that clearly didn't love me?! At that moment, I felt like I hit rock bottom. I was broken and destroyed. At that moment, I felt like I lost everything and there was absolutely no way that I could ever be happy or have anything remotely as wonderful as I had it. Fast forward to tonight....I have this wonderful man beside me that put his game away, and sat beside me holding my hand and kissing the top of my head. All of this because he wanted the second time I saw this movie to be wonderful to make up for the first time I saw it. The very end has a sweet little line to the affect of looking up and seeing a beautiful woman....suddenly, a hand gently caressed my cheek and slowly moved it to face him. He looked at me and told me I was so beautiful and kissed me. That moment, I felt more love than I have ever before. This man did something so simple but meant the absolute world to me. I never could have imagined that my life would look like this today. I didn't feel like I deserved anything, let alone an ounce of love. I told D that was how I felt a year ago. He told me that I was so sweet and wonderful, and deserved all the love in the world. I am absolutely in love with this man. I don't know how it happened, but I would do it a million times over just for him. It's amazing how much can change in just one year. Every tear, every pain, every crappy moment was absolutely worth the end result. I am so happy! Thank you to the man that threw me away so that the man who appreciates me and loves me could appear and sweep me off my feet!